Process of evolving ..What a year!

New year....new hair! 

Over the past year there have been hurdles, triumphs, loss, rekindled friendships, sicknesses, health and of course love. Just when you think you have life figured out curve balls come your way. But it is up to you to decide if those curve balls are going to take you out or if you will keep on dodging them . I choose to dodge them this year! I think I am ending this year on a particularly good note, in my humble opinion :)

Clark has made significant strides in all aspects of life thus far. He is walking, learning to communicate - although I wish " ba---ba--- ba" wasn't used to describe everything he wants, :) He is into creating new things, watching how machines move. He has absolutely loved the decorations that are out for the holidays! I do believe I will be that person that decorates for all " holidays"..... They do make egg lights, right?!?! :)

He is such a fun loving  boy! He can melt your heart and make your blood boil all in one whack, but I wouldn't want it any other way. He has taught me how to love unconditionally, how to forgive and forget and also how to communicate in a positive way. He has showed me how to slow down, enjoy life on my terms, have fun, and sometimes just laugh and smile. He has given me so much drive and ambition. It's funny how a 17 month old can show an adult the way to live. Clark and I have found our groove! We can sing songs, roll around on the bed, play with trucks and cars, or rock the babies to sleep. He is the most important and best thing in my life.

FAMILY

This time last year, my father was very ill. He has since had open heart surgery. Which was a success but he  has had some set backs recently  in his recovery. He is taking it day by day. I am hoping that the year treats him right and we can move on from his illness. I really would love to see my dad back to were he was - he has lost a bit of his spunk, ambition and youthfulness. 

This year, I have started back to work. Going from only watching Clark to a "part time" job, ( I haven't seen the low side of 20 hours since the second week into the job!) Has been tough work. I sometimes feel that I am not spending enough time with Clark. But deep down I know that the separation is good for the both of us. That this makes the time we do spend together that much greater.  I am looking into several schools for Clark for the upcoming year. I love that he gets to spend so much time with Na- Na and Grampie Jim, but I know that it would be great for him to be around other children a few days a week. This is a major decision that I have made.... we shall see how it turns out! I am excited about the process and how Clark will evolve even more and make some buddies! Also, I really am looking forward to his first " project" at school!!!

Working has been really good for my whole self . I feel appreciated , respected and I have fun ( most days!) 

I have decided to go back to school and take a few classes so that I can become director certified for the state. I know my passion is being in the classroom - but for now I am really happy working outside of the classroom in a more office type environment. I never would have guessed that I would enjoy that type of work. But I guess the saying is true.... people can change. 

I am looking forward to 2012 being a great year. A year filled with friendships, love, a good health. 

Until next time,

There is only love <3