Making life fun again!

I just finished “Suzanne’s Diary for Nicholas", by James Patterson. What an amazingly powerful love story and life altering story. In the story they make reference to having 5 balls in life, work- rubber ball, family, love, friends and health are all glass balls. Glass balls make it harder to juggle because we have to tread carefully as to not chip, break or shatter these balls. 

The rubber ball will always bounce. You can always work harder in a job, get a new one, or just keep bouncing in the same job as life goes, on. As I was thinking about these balls  I believe that this book hit the nail on the head. Life does consist of these 5 balls… we have to remember which ones are more gentle and which we can play with. 

Sometimes I put way to much thought into something that really shouldn't even be thought about to begin with. I have always worried about what people think of me- in regards to my weight, but also in regards to how they think of me as a person.

Tuesday I go back to the nutritionist, hopefully I have lost more weight. I keep meaning to put up a picture from before I started losing weight and one now. I am down 26 pounds  (crossing my fingers for more the next appointment! :) 

I always worry about making people I care about mad,sad or worse disappointed. I say sorry way to much for my liking...and most of the time for other peoples liking as well. 

I do things for others because I like making people happy- I like knowing that I did something that put a smile on their face. That it made them feel special even just for a moment in time.  I have never been one to go out of my way making someone happy to get something in return. That's not who I am at all. 

This book made me think about that fact that life is a glass ball-- if we miss catching it, its going to shatter. Life should be treated with gentle hands- but it should also be fun. There is no point in living your life for someone else. You have to live it for yourself and your children. 

I'm sick of waiting around for something to happen. I've lost alot of friends since I deleted my facebook account, I guess in reality they weren't that close to begin with if they aren't around now. I'm tired of chasing people to hangout with, I'm sick of worrying why people choose to disregard things I say. So with that in mind..... I gotta start making my life fun again! 

New Experiences

As I continue to grow and watch Clark grow, I have been looking at new experiences in a way in which I never did before.

As Clark gets ready for another day of multiple transitions at the home daycare, I too am ready for multiple transitions that will occur. Although transitions have never been a favor of mine, as I'm sure many people can relate too, it is of course much easier as an adult to transition.Clark has a  rough go with learning to adapt into a new environment, but he is doing really well and trying to hold his own.

I choose a home daycare setting for Clark, because I felt that this type of environment would be very familiar , as he stays with his great grandparents and grandparents two days a week. I am not fond of big box daycares, as they leave little to the imagination. At Clark's daycare there is only 8 kids per day and they have alot of outside time. The teacher has been doing this for 25 years and she seems like a pro!

I know Clark will find his way! He will continue to  learn coping, transition,and social  strategies  that will help him in other social settings.

On the same topic, I have never been fond of being in a new place or with new people.I have always been shy, which often is taken that I am a snob or a bitch... neither I may add are who I am.

 However I met up with a friend a few days ago who introduced me to a few people. They were a really nice couple with a cute little baby boy! He had the most beautiful eyes and really funny laugh! Being able to be myself and engage with t new people in this context was really good for me. The girlfriend was engaging and very talkative, which was good!  We chit chatted about kids,working while taking care of the boys, going back to school and some interests that we both had. It was a really nice night and hopefully we can all do it again! 

So here is to new transitions and learning to go out on a limb.....

"To start something we all know and love , and then turn it over, examine it from different perspectives, and make it new and exciting again".

Until next time,

There is only love <3